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October, 2008

Each encounter


Radiohead live: Where I End and You Begin

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L-Tx87400-w


Text by Marguerite Duras, music by Erik Satie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGbYRAfQYF8

Memories

nude back by tonywoodphoto.
http://flickr.com/photos/the_chocolate_trio/2588614667

Halcyon seasons, solstice of my days... Far from exaggerating my former happiness, I must struggle against too weak a portrayal; even now the recollection overpowers me. More sincere than most men, I can freely admit the secret causes of this felicity: that calm so propitious for work and for discipline of the mind seems to me one of the richest results of love. And it puzzles me that these joys, so precarious at best, and so rarely perfect in the course of human life, however we may have sought or received them, should be regarded with such mistrust by the so-called wise, who denounce the danger of habit and excess in sensuous delight, instead of fearing its absence or its loss; in tyrannizing over their senses they pass time which would be better occupied in putting their souls to rights, or embellishing them. At that period I paid as constant attention to the greater securing of my happiness, to enjoying and judging it, too, as I had always done for the smallest details of my acts; and what is the act of love, itself, if not a moment of passionate attention on the part of the body? Every bliss achieved is a masterpiece; the slightest error turns it awry, and it alters with one touch of doubt; any heaviness detracts from its charm, the least stupidity renders it dull.

-- Memoirs of Hadrian, Marguerite Yourcenar



If on a Winters Night a Traveler.

An excerpt from Calvino:

photo erotic (scale: 100%)
snow in the front-to-back light,
http://www.photoforum.ru/phot/188422/index.en.html


... I'm speaking to you two, a fairly unrecognisable tangle under the rumpled sheet. Maybe afterward you will go your separate ways and the story will again have to shift gears painfully, to alternate between the feminine tu and the masculine; but now, since your bodies are trying to find, skin to skin, the adhesion most generous in sensations, to transmit and receive vibrations and waves, to compenetrate the fullnesses and the voids, since in mental activity you have also agreed on teh maximum agreement, you can be addressed with an articulated speech that includes you both in a sole, two-headed person. First of all the field of action, or of existence, must be established for this double entity you form. Where is the reciprocal indentification leading? What is the central theme that recurs in your variations and modulations? A tension concentrated on not losing anything of its own potential, on prolonging a state of reactivity, on exploiting the accumullation of the other's desire in order to multiply one's own charge? Or is it the most submissive abandonment, the exploration of the immensity of strokable and reciprocally stroking spaces, the dissolving of one's being in a lake whose surface is infinitely tactile? In both situations you certainly do not exist except in relation to each other, but, to make those situations possible, your respective egos have not so much to erase themselves as to occupy, without reserve, all the void of the mental space, invest in itself at the maximum interest or spend itself to the last penny. In short, what you are doing is very beautiful but grammatically it doesn't change a thing. At the moment when you most appear to be a united voi, a second person plural, you are two tus, more separate and circumscribed than before.

(This is already true now, when you are still occupied, each with the other's presence, in an exclusive fashion. Imagine how it will be in a little while, when ghosts that do not meet will frequent your minds, accompanying the encounters of your bodies tested by habit.)

Ludmilla, now you are being read. Your body is being subjected to a systematic reading, through channels of tactile information, visual, olfactory, and not without some intervention of the taste buds. Hearing also has its role, alert to your gasps and your trills. It is not only the body that is, in you, the object of raeding: the body matters insofar as it is part of a complex of elaborate elements, not all visible and not all present, but manifested in visible and present events: the clouding of your eyes, your laughing, the words you speak, your way of gathering and spreading your hair, your initiatives and your reticences, and all the signs that are on the frontier between you and usage and habits and memory and prehistory and fashion, all codes, all the poor alphabets by which one human being believes at certain moments that he is reading another human being.

And you too, O Reader, are meanwhile an object of reading: the Other Reader now is reviewing your body as if skimming the index, and at some moments she consults it as if gripped by sudden and specific curiosities, then she lingers, questioning it and waiting till a silent asnwer reaches ehr, as if every partial inspection interested her only in the light of a wider spatial reconnaissance. Now she dwells on negligible details, perhaps tiny stylistic faults, for example the prominent Adam's apple or your way of burying your head in the hollow of her shoulder, and she exploits them to establish a margin of detachment, critical reserve, or joking intimacy; now instead the accidentally discovered detail is excessively cherished - for example, the shape of your chin or a special nip you take at her shoulder - and from this start she gains impetus, covers (you cover together) pages and pages from top to bottom without skipping a comma. Meanwhile, in the satisfaction you receive from her way of reading you, from the textual quotations of your physical objectivity, you begin to harbor a doubt: that she is not reading you, single and whole as you are, but using you, using fragments of you detached from the context to construct for herself a ghostly partner, known to her alone, in the penumbra of her semiconsciousness, and what she is deciphering is this apocryphal visitor, not you.

Lovers' reading of each other's bodies (of that concentrate of mind and body which lovers use to go to bed together) differs from the reading of written pages in that it is not linear. It starts at any point, skips, repeats itself, goes backward, insists, ramifies in simultaneous and divergent messages, converges again, has moments of irritation, turns the page, finds its place, gets lost. A direction can be recognized in it, a route to an end, since it tends toward a climax, and with this end in view it arranges rhythmic phases, metrical scansions, recurrence of motives. But is the climax really the end? Or is the race toward that end opposed by another drive which works in the opposite direction, swimming against the moments, recovering time?

If one wanted to depict the whole thing graphically, every episode, with its climax, would require a three-dimensional, or, rather, no model: every experience is unrepeatable. What makes lovemaking and reading resemble each other most is that within both of them times and spaces open, different from measurable time and space.
Already, in the confused improvisation of the first encounter, the possible future of a cohabitation is read. Today each of you is the object of the other's reading, each reads in the other the unwritten story. Tomorrow, Reader and Other Reader, if you are together, if you lie down in the same bed like a settled couple, each will turn on the lamp at the side of the bed and sink into his or her book; two parallel readings will accompany the approach of sleep; first you, then you will turn out the light; returning from separate universes, you will find each other fleetingly in the darkness, where all separations are erased, before divergent dreams draw you again, one to one side, and one to the other. But do not wax ironic on this prospect of conjugal harmony: what happier image of a couple could you set against it?

September, 2008

Being with you and not being with you is the only way I have to measure time.



Rarities. Poems Borges wrote in English.

I

The useless dawn finds me in a deserted streetcorner; I have
outlived the night.
Nights are proud waves: darkblue topheavy waves laden with all
hues of deep spoil, laden with things unlikely and desirable.
Nights have a habit of mysterious gifts and refusals, of things
half given away, half, withheld, of joys with a dark
hemisphere. Nights act that way, I tell you.
The surge, that night, left me the customary shreds and odd
ends: some hated friends to chat with, music for dreams,
and the smoking of bitter ashes. The things my hungry
heart has no use for.
The big wave brought you.
Words, any words, your laughter; and you so lazily and incessantly
beautiful. We talked and you have forgotten the words.
The shattering dawn finds me in a deserted street of my city.
Your profile turned away, the sounds that go to make your name,
the lilt of your laughter: these are illustrious toys
you have left me.
I turn them over in the dawn, I lose them, I find them; I tell
them to the few stray dogs and to the few stray stars
of the dawn.
Your dark rich life…
I must get at you, somehow: I put away those illustrious toys
you have left me, I want your hidden look, your real smile
—that lonely, mocking smile your cool mirror knows.


II

What can I hold you with?
I offer you lean streets, desperate sunsets, the moon of ragged
suburbs.
I offer you the bitterness of a man who has looked long and long
at the lonely moon.
I offer you my ancestors, my dead men, the ghosts that living men
have honoured in marble: my father’s father killed in the
frontier of Buenos Aires, two bullets through his lungs,
bearded and dead, wrapped by his soldiers in the hide
of a cow; my mother’s grandfather –just twenty four-
heading a charged of three hundred men in Peru, now
ghosts on vanished horses.
I offer you whatever insight my books may hold, whatever man-
liness or humour my life.
I offer you the loyalty of a man who has never been loyal.
I offer you that kernel of myself that I have saved, somehow –the
central heart that deals not in words, traffics not with
dreams and is untouched by time, by joy, by adversities.
I offer you the memory of yellow rose seen at sunset, years
before you were born.
I offer you explanations of yourself,
theories about yourself, authentic and surprising news of yourself.
I can give you my loneliness, my darkness, the hunger of my
heart; I am trying to bribe you with
uncertainty, with danger, with defeat.

1934
September, 2008

xkcd



August, 2008

I am who I shall be and become. I shall construct myself and choose my exile.


Darwish in a Godard film? I'm very curious as to how he dealt with the subject matter. Soon though.


http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/3/35/Rain_Steam_and_Speed_the_Great_Western_Railway.jpg
Turner - Rain, Steam and Speed - The Great Western Railway

Mahmoud Darwishs homage to Edward Said.

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/e/e2/Joseph_Mallord_William_Turner_024.jpg
Turner - Calais Pier



August, 2008

Horizon

Unseen buds, infinite, hidden well,
Under the snow and ice, under the darkness, in every square or cubic inch,
Germinal, exquisite, in delicate lace, microscopic, unborn,
Like babes in wombs, latent, folded, compact, sleeping;
Billions of billions, and trillions of trillions of them waiting,
(On earth and in the sea — the universe — the stars there in the heavens,)
Urging slowly, surely forward, forming endless,
And waiting ever more, forever more behind.
-- Whitman

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/5/58/Vue_d%27Arkona_-_Sepia_de_Caspar_David_Friedrich.jpg
View of Arkona at Moonrise, sepia drawing, C.D. Friedrich

June, 2008

And through a fractal on a breaking wall

'It was love at first touch rather than at first sight, for I had met her several times before without experiencing any special emotions; but one night as I was seeing her home, something quaint she had said made me stoop with a laugh and lightly kiss her on the hair - and of course we all know of that blinding blast which is caused by merely picking up a small doll from the floor of a carefully abandoned house: the soldier involved hears nothing; for him it is but an ecstatic soundless and boundless expansion of what had been during his life a pinpoint of light in the dark center of his being. And really, the reason we think of death in celestial terms is that the visible firmament, especially at night (above our blacked-out Paris with the gaunt arches of its Boulevard Exelmans and the ceaseless Alpine gurgle of desolate latrines), is the most adequate and ever-present symbol of that vast silent explosion'

'The time, the place, the torture. Her fan, her gloves, her mask. I spent that night and many others getting it out of her bit by bit, but not getting it all. I was under the strange delusion that first I must find out every detail, reconstruct every minute, and only then decide whether I could bear it. But the limit of desired knowledge was unattainable, nor could I ever foretell the approximate point after which I might imagine myself satiated, because of course the denominator of every fraction of knowledge was potentially as infinite as the number of intervals between the fractions themselves.'

http://alumni.media.mit.edu/~mazalek/projects/aleppo/nabokov.html

Musica Indiscriminate


Prof Edgar Nogueira

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vat6Y0Vua0

Nina Simone - Ain't Got No...I've Got Life
http://youtube.com/watch?v=GUcXI2BIUOQ

Astor Piazzolla: Milonga del Angel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bbdakZjHTys

Solomon Burke - None of Us Are Free feat. The Blind Boys of Alabama
mp3: http://media.anti.com/solomon_burke/dont_give_up_on_me/None_Of_Us_Are_Free.mp3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kfzVeTaSAsQ

Tracy Chapman & BB King The Thrill Has Gone
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A34YpXq6TIo

Blue Oyster Cult - Don't Fear The Reaper
http://www.zshare.net/download/4460566be942d9/

Paper Bag - Fiona Apple
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Kkg1IkGJ0Y
(And I went crazy again today
Can not. Will not. Stop. Singing.)

Save me - Aimee Mann
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bNbTC6xLVg0

Alanis Morissette - Crazy (Seal Cover)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9KCIgkLMiKo

Bruce Springsteen - Girls In Their Summer Clothes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U7g7-lL6cQU

The Beatles - The End
http://youtube.com/watch?v=gI38vPDCoao
(..and in the end, the love you take, is equal to, the love you make..
Schmaltz? Oh bite me.)

Live - Turn My Head: Inspired by John Register Version
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pll_nym5TfM

Magnet & Gemma Hayes - Lay Lady Lay
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UAif3KBavSQ
(I forgot how much I loved indie-folk.
And he's on a bicycle. nudge nudge wink wink @ Third Policeman reference. And 19th April. Of course.)

Metamorphosis Two - Philip Glass
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jf2YGbTjAGc
(Heard this whilst reading Chronicle of a Death Foretold. *cough* seemed like an apt soundtrack to the central christ-figure in the book.)

Zhao Jing & Yasuji Ohagi - A. Piazzolla - Tanti Anni Prima
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZAmD3dWO_ME

Piazzola - Yo Yo Ma Libertango
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_tMgVMxG95A

Deep Water - Portishead
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OGNVp9FybvM

The Smiths - Big Mouth Strikes Again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=riOWcUi95_A
(Sweetness, sweetness I was only joking
When I said I'd like to smash every tooth
In your head
Check out their Peel sessions)

Mark Knopfler - Rüdiger A Night In London
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-z_q16yDlRk
(Word.)

Saul Williams - List of Demands
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l1llNYAlYrc

Oistrakh & Richter Franck Violin Sonata I Part1 - 4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p3esQ8qO5gc

Staring at the Sun - TV on the Radio
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uo2WLQ2LVA
(I'll never get over them. NEVER!, y'hear!)

Neil Young - Heart Of Gold
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Eh44QPT1mPE

Radiohead - All I Need (Official MTV Video)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cdrCalO5BDs
(It's ironic that the biggest corporate cultural polluters in America, who don't think twice before giving airtime to a consumer oriented, labour abusing company like Nike (I was actually expecting a sneaker in the end, but thats ACTUALLY making a statement, isn't it?) would produce this video. But I like the song and the video did give me shivers.

For a better understanding on the effects of human trafficking, labour issues and the connection with various corporations, here's Pilgers piece:

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-7932485454526581006)

ASTRAKAN CAFÉ - Anouar Brahem Trio
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UOPK0TCy-bw
(I had forgotten how much I loved Brahem)

Bloc Party - "Hunting for Witches" VICE Records
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P2EkcT9q28Q
(Disparate and misinformed
Fear will keep us all in place)

The Revolution Will Not Be Televised: Gil Scott Heron
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uTCQSk2l8bc
(You will not be able to stay home, brother.
You will not be able to plug in, turn on and cop out.
You will not be able to lose yourself on skag and skip,
Skip out for beer during commercials,
Because the revolution will not be televised.

The revolution will not be televised.
The revolution will not be brought to you by Xerox
In 4 parts without commercial interruptions.
The revolution will not show you pictures of Nixon
blowing a bugle and leading a charge by John
Mitchell, General Abrams and Spiro Agnew to eat
hog maws confiscated from a Harlem sanctuary.
The revolution will not be televised.

http://www.gilscottheron.com/lyrevol.html)

Elliott Smith - Between the Bars
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOvhx8XwpH4






Father and Daughter

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvmTsH4iHBo

Saw this when Z posted it earlier. Then saw it the day before. Then last night. Then this morning. Then now. You should see it too.

October, 2007

Black is the Colour of My True Loves Hair

 
Check the testimonials, they very funny
 
 
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September, 2007

Give me rampant intellectualism as a coping mechanism

 
Stood in firelight, sweltering. Bloodstain on chest like map of violent new continent. Felt cleansed. Felt dark planet turn under my feet and knew what cats know that makes them scream like babies in night.
 
    Looked at sky through smoke heavy with human fat and God was not there. The cold, suffocating dark goes on forever and we are alone. Live our lives, lacking anything better to do. Devise reason later. Born from oblivion; bear children, hell-bound as ourselves, go into oblivion. There is nothing else.
 
    Existence is random. Has no pattern save what we imagine after staring at it for too long. No meaning save what we choose to impose. This rudderless world is not shaped by vague metaphysical forces. It is not God who kills the children. Not fate that butchers them or destiny that feeds them to the dogs. It's us. Only us. Streets stank of fire. The void breathed hard on my heart, turning its illusions to ice, shattering them. Was reborn then, free to scrawl own design on this morally blank world. Was Rorschach.
 
--
I looked at the Rorschach blot. I tried to pretend it looked like a spreading tree,
shadows pooled beneath it, but it didn’t. It looked more like a dead cat I once found,
the fat, glistening grubs writhing blindly, squirming over each other, frantically tunneling
away from the light. But even that is avoiding the real horror. The horror is this: In the
end, it is simply a picture of empty meaningless blackness. We are alone. There is
nothing else.
 
--
In my opinion, it's [Life] is a highly overrated phenomenon. Mars gets on perfectly without so much as a microorganism. See: there's the south pole beneath us now... No life. No life at all, but giant steps, ninety feet high, scoured by dust and wind into a constantly changing topographical map, flowing and shifting around the pole in ripples ten thousand years wide. Tell me... would it be greatly improved by an oil pipeline?
 
---
Look at it: a volcano as large as Missouri, it's summit fifteen miles high, piercing even the atmospheric blanket. Breathtaking... We've been through this before, Laurie. You argue that human life was more significant than this excellent desolation and I was not convinced. You attempted to compare the mere uncertainty in your existence with the chaos of the world beneath us... but where are the pinnacles to rival this Olympus? Where are the depths to match those of Valles Marineris. It stretches more than three thousand miles, so that one end knows day while the other endures night. Temperature differences breed shrieking winds that herd oceans of fog along a canyon four miles deep. Does the human heart know chasms so abysmal?
 
--
Thermo-dynamic miracles... events with odds against so astronomical they're effectively impossible, like oxygen spontaneously becoming gold. I long to observe such a thing.
 
And yet, in each human coupling, a thousand million sperm vie for a single egg. Multiply those odds by countless generations, against the odds of your ancestors being alive; meeting; siring this precise son; that exact daughter... Until your mother loves a man she has every reason to hate, and of that union, of the thousand million children competing for fertilization, it was you, only you, that emerged. To distill so specific a form from that chaos of improbability, like turning air to gold... that is the crowning unlikelihood. The thermo-dynamic miracle.
 
But the world is so full of people, so crowded with these miracles that they become commonplace and we forget... We gaze continually at the world and it grows dull in our perceptions. Yet seen from another's vantage point, as if new, it may still take the breath away.
 
Come... dry your eyes, for you are life, rarer than a quark and unpredictable beyond the dreams of Heisenberg; the clay in which the forces that shape all things leave their fingerprints most clearly.
 
Dry your eyes... and let's go home.
 
-- Watchmen, Alan Moore 

September, 2007

Reality favors symmetries and slight anachronisms

 
And yet, and yet . . . Denying temporal succession, denying the self, denying the astronomical universe, are apparent desperations and secret consolations. Our destiny is not frightful by being unreal; it is frightful because it is irreversible and iron-clad. Time is the substance I am made of. Time is a river which sweeps me along, but I am the river; it is a tiger which destroys me, but I am the tiger; it is a fire which consumes me, but I am the fire. The world, unfortunately, is real; I, unfortunately, am Borges.

-- Essay: A New Refutation of Time, 1946 

Wall And Piece

 

An extract from the diary of Lieutenant Colonel Mervin Willett Gonin DSO who was
among the first British soldiers to liberate Bergen-Belsen in 1945.


I can give no adequate description of the Horror Camp in which my men and myself were to spend the next month of our lives. It was just a barren wilderness, as bare as a chicken run. Corpses lay everywhere, some in huge piles, sometimes they lay singly or in pairs where they had fallen. It took a little time to get used to seeing men women and children collapse as you walked by them and to restrain oneself from going to their assistance. One had to get used early to the idea that the individual just did not count. One knew that five hundred a day were dying and that five hundred a day were going on dying for weeks before anything we could do would have the slightest effect. It was, however, not easy to watch a child choking to death from diptheria when you knew a tracheotomy and nursing would save it, one saw women drowning in their own vomit because they were too weak to turn over, and men eating worms as they clutched a half loaf of bread purely because they had to eat worms to live and now could scarcely tell the difference. Piles of corpses, naked and obscene, with a woman too weak to stand proping herself against them as she cooked the food we had given her over an open fire; men and women crouching down just anywhere in the open relieving themselves of the dysentary which was scouring their bowels, a woman standing stark naked washing herself with some issue soap in water from a tank in which the remains of a child floated. It was shortly after the British Red Cross arrived, though it may have no connection, that a very large quantity of lipstick arrived. This was not at all what we men wanted, we were screaming for hundreds and thousands of other things and I don't know who asked for lipstick. I wish so much that I could discover who did it, it was the action of genius, sheer unadulterated brilliance. I believe nothing did more for these internees than the lipstick. Women lay in bed with no sheets and no nightie but with scarlet red lips, you saw them wandering about with nothing but a blanket over their shoulders, but with scarlet red lips. I saw a woman dead on the post mortem table and clutched in her hand was a piece of lipstick. At last someone had done something to make them individuals again, they were someone, no longer merely the number tatooed on the arm. At last they could take an interest in their appearance. That lipstick started to give them back their humanity.

Source: Imperial War museum

http://www.banksy.co.uk/manifesto/index.html

Junk Merchants

 
To raise awareness and money for The Global Fund, a percentage of each (PRODUCT)RED product sold is given to The Global Fund. The money helps women and children affected by HIV/AIDS in Africa. 
 
Are  they serious?
 
Who needs more stuff? You don't have to buy (RED) to make a difference. Join the (LESS) movement that rejects shopping as a solution to human suffering. Donate directly. Make a real difference. Limit the consumption of more meaning(less) crap.
 
 
Like Burroughs would say: The junk merchant doesn't sell his product to the consumer, he sells the consumer to the product. He does not improve and simplify his merchandise. He degrades and simplifies the client.
 
 
September, 2007

Everybody Loves a Political Song

 
TV on the Radio - Dry Drunk Emperor

Not exactly Anti-flag or the Pistols, but since I'm quite unable to see beyond these guys for a while now, thus

all eyes upon
dry drunk emperor
gold cross cross jock skull and bones
mocking smile,
he's been
standing naked for a while

Dylan allusion, I think: he's been standing naked for a while

While preachers preach of evil fates
Teachers teach that knowledge waits
Can lead to hundred-dollar plates
Goodness hides behind its gates
But even the president of the United States
Sometimes must have
To stand naked.

From It's Alright Ma I'm Only Bleeding

or the Emperors New clothes, either way
 
September, 2007

And watch the world spinning gently out of time

 
How much does a man live, after all?

Does he live a thousand days, or only one?

For a week, or for several centuries?

How long does a man spend dying?

What does it mean to say, "for ever"?

- Pablo Neruda  
August, 2007

Between The Bars

 
“for poetry that with ironic precision allows the historical and biological context to come to light in fragments of human reality"
 
"I thought poetry could change everything, could change history and could humanize, and I think that the illusion is very necessary to push poets to be involved and to believe, but now I think that poetry changes only the poet."
 
"We should not justify suicide bombers. We are against the suicide bombers, but we must understand what drives these young people to such actions. They want to liberate themselves from such a dark life. It is not ideological, it is despair."
 
 

Under Siege

 

Here on the slopes of hills, facing the dusk and the cannon of time
Close to the gardens of broken shadows,
We do what prisoners do,
And what the jobless do:
We cultivate hope.
***
A country preparing for dawn. We grow less intelligent
For we closely watch the hour of victory:
No night in our night lit up by the shelling
Our enemies are watchful and light the light for us
In the darkness of cellars.
***
Here there is no "I".
Here Adam remembers the dust of his clay.
***
On the verge of death, he says:
I have no trace left to lose:
Free I am so close to my liberty. My future lies in my own hand.
Soon I shall penetrate my life,
I shall be born free and parentless,
And as my name I shall choose azure letters...
***
You who stand in the doorway, come in,
Drink Arabic coffee with us
And you will sense that you are men like us
You who stand in the doorways of houses
Come out of our morningtimes,
We shall feel reassured to be
Men like you!
***
When the planes disappear, the white, white doves
Fly off and wash the cheeks of heaven
With unbound wings taking radiance back again, taking possession
Of the ether and of play. Higher, higher still, the white, white doves
Fly off. Ah, if only the sky
Were real [a man passing between two bombs said to me].
***
Cypresses behind the soldiers, minarets protecting
The sky from collapse. Behind the hedge of steel
Soldiers piss—under the watchful eye of a tank—
And the autumnal day ends its golden wandering in
A street as wide as a church after Sunday mass...
***
[To a killer] If you had contemplated the victim’s face
And thought it through, you would have remembered your mother in the
Gas chamber, you would have been freed from the reason for the rifle
And you would have changed your mind: this is not the way
to find one’s identity again.
***
The siege is a waiting period
Waiting on the tilted ladder in the middle of the storm.
***
Alone, we are alone as far down as the sediment
Were it not for the visits of the rainbows.
***
We have brothers behind this expanse.
Excellent brothers. They love us. They watch us and weep.
Then, in secret, they tell each other:
"Ah! if this siege had been declared..." They do not finish their sentence:
"Don’t abandon us, don’t leave us."
***
Our losses: between two and eight martyrs each day.
And ten wounded.
And twenty homes.
And fifty olive trees...
Added to this the structural flaw that
Will arrive at the poem, the play, and the unfinished canvas.
***
A woman told the cloud: cover my beloved
For my clothing is drenched with his blood.
***
If you are not rain, my love
Be tree
Sated with fertility, be tree
If you are not tree, my love
Be stone
Saturated with humidity, be stone
If you are not stone, my love
Be moon
In the dream of the beloved woman, be moon
[So spoke a woman
to her son at his funeral]
***
Oh watchmen! Are you not weary
Of lying in wait for the light in our salt
And of the incandescence of the rose in our wound
Are you not weary, oh watchmen?
***
A little of this absolute and blue infinity
Would be enough
To lighten the burden of these times
And to cleanse the mire of this place.
***
It is up to the soul to come down from its mount
And on its silken feet walk
By my side, hand in hand, like two longtime
Friends who share the ancient bread
And the antique glass of wine
May we walk this road together
And then our days will take different directions:
I, beyond nature, which in turn
Will choose to squat on a high-up rock.
***
On my rubble the shadow grows green,
And the wolf is dozing on the skin of my goat
He dreams as I do, as the angel does
That life is here...not over there.
***
In the state of siege, time becomes space
Transfixed in its eternity
In the state of siege, space becomes time
That has missed its yesterday and its tomorrow.
***
The martyr encircles me every time I live a new day
And questions me: Where were you? Take every word
You have given me back to the dictionaries
And relieve the sleepers from the echo’s buzz.
***
The martyr enlightens me: beyond the expanse
I did not look
For the virgins of immortality for I love life
On earth, amid fig trees and pines,
But I cannot reach it, and then, too, I took aim at it
With my last possession: the blood in the body of azure.
***
The martyr warned me: Do not believe their ululations
Believe my father when, weeping, he looks at my photograph
How did we trade roles, my son, how did you precede me.
I first, I the first one!
***
The martyr encircles me: my place and my crude furniture are all that I have changed.
I put a gazelle on my bed,
And a crescent of moon on my finger
To appease my sorrow.
***
The siege will last in order to convince us we must choose an enslavement that does no harm, in fullest liberty!
***
Resisting means assuring oneself of the heart’s health,
The health of the testicles and of your tenacious disease:
The disease of hope.
***
And in what remains of the dawn, I walk toward my exterior
And in what remains of the night, I hear the sound of footsteps inside me.
***
Greetings to the one who shares with me an attention to
The drunkenness of light, the light of the butterfly, in the
Blackness of this tunnel!
***
Greetings to the one who shares my glass with me
In the denseness of a night outflanking the two spaces:
Greetings to my apparition.
***
My friends are always preparing a farewell feast for me,
A soothing grave in the shade of oak trees
A marble epitaph of time
And always I anticipate them at the funeral:
Who then has died...who?
***
Writing is a puppy biting nothingness
Writing wounds without a trace of blood.
***
Our cups of coffee. Birds green trees
In the blue shade, the sun gambols from one wall
To another like a gazelle
The water in the clouds has the unlimited shape of what is left to us
Of the sky. And other things of suspended memories
Reveal that this morning is powerful and splendid,
And that we are the guests of eternity.
 
 -- Mahmoud Darwish

  (Translated by Marjolijn De Jager)

To Urania

 
 
    To I.K.
        Everything has its limit, including sorrow.
        A windowpane stalls a stare. Nor does a grill abandon
        a leaf. One may rattle the keys, gurgle down a swallow.
        Loneless cubes a man at random.
        A camel sniffs at the rail with a resentful nostril;
        a perspective cuts emptiness deep and even.
        And what is space anyway if not the
        body's absence at every given
        point? That's why Urania's older sister Clio!
        in daylight or with the soot-rich lantern,
        you see the globe's pate free of any bio,
        you see she hides nothing, unlike the latter.
        There they are, blueberry-laden forests,
        rivers where the folk with bare hands catch sturgeon
        or the towns in whose soggy phone books
        you are starring no longer; father eastward surge on
        brown mountain ranges; wild mares carousing
        in tall sedge; the cheeckbones get yellower
        as they turn numerous. And still farther east, steam dreadnoughts
                                                        or cruisers,
        and the expanse grows blue like lace underwear.
 
 -- Joseph Brodsky
August, 2007

Random Education 3

 
ZNet Commentary: Eco-junk: Green consumerism will not save the biosphere
''Ethical shopping is in danger of becoming another signifier of social status. I have met people who have bought solar panels and mini-wind turbines before they have insulated their lofts: partly because they love gadgets, but partly, I suspect, because everyone can then see how conscientious (and how rich) they are. We are often told that buying such products encourages us to think more widely about environmental challenges, but it is just as likely to be depoliticising. Green consumerism is another form of atomisation - a substitute for collective action. No political challenge can be met by shopping.
The middle classes rebrand their lives, congratulate themselves on going green, and carry on buying and flying as much as ever before. It is easy to picture a situation in which the whole world religiously buys green products, and its carbon emissions continue to soar.''
 

KSG Faculty Research Working Paper Series : The Israel Lobby and U.S. Foreign Policy
''Why has the United States been willing to set aside its own security in order to advance the interests of another state? One might assume that the bond between the two countries is based on shared strategic interests or compelling moral imperativs. As we show below, however, neither of those explanations can account for the remarkable level of material and diplomatic support that the United States povides to Israel.
Instead, the overall thrust of U.S. policy in the region is due almost entirely to U.S. domestic politics, and especially to the activities of the “Israel Lobby.” Other special interest groups have managed to skew U.S. foreign policy in directions they favored, but no lobby has managed to divert U.S. foreign policy as far from what the American national interest would otherwise suggest, while simultaneously convincing Americans that U.S. and Israeli interests are essentially identical.''
 
 
 
Lessig, Patenting and Free Culture

Ode Pour L'election De Son Sepulchre


For three years, out of key with his time,
He strove to resuscitate the dead art
Of poetry; to maintain "the sublime"
In the old sense. Wrong from the start--

No, hardly, but seeing he had been born
In a half savage country, out of date;
Bent resolutely on wringing lilies from the acorn;
Capaneus; trout for factitious bait;
Idmen gar toi panth, hos eni troie
Caught in the unstopped ear;
Giving the rocks small lee-way
The chopped seas held him, therefore, that year.
His true Penelope was Flaubert,
He fished by obstinate isles;
Observed the elegance of Circe's hair
Rather than the mottoes on sun-dials.
Unaffected by "the march of events,"
He passed from men's memory in l'an trentuniesme
de son eage;the case presents
No adjunct to the Muses' diadem.

II
The age demanded an image
Of its accelerated grimace,
Something for the modern stage
Not, at any rate, an Attic grace;
Not, certainly, the obscure reveries
Of the inward gaze;
Better mendacities
Than the classics in paraphrase!
The "age demanded" chiefly a mould in plaster,
Made with no loss of time,
A prose kinema, not, not assuredly, alabaster
Or the "sculpture" of rhyme.

III
The tea-rose tea-gown, etc.
Supplants the mousseline of Cos,
The pianola "replaces"
Sappho's barbitos.
Christ follows Dionysus,
Phallic and ambrosial
Made way for macerations;
Caliban casts out Ariel.
All things are a flowing
Sage Heracleitus say;
But a tawdry cheapness
Shall outlast our days.
Even the Christian beauty
Defects--after Samothrace;
We see to kalon
Decreed in the market place.
Faun's flesh is not to us,
Nor the saint's vision.
We have the press for wafer;
Franchise for circumcision.
All men, in law, are equals.
Free of Pisistratus,
We choose a knave or an eunuch
To rule over us.
O bright Apollo,
Tin andra, tin heroa, tina theon,
What god, man or hero
Shall I place a tin wreath upon!

IV
These fought in any case,
And some believing,
                                pro domo, in any case...
Some quick to arm,
some for adventure,
some from fear of weakness,
some from fear of censure,
some for love of slaughter, in imagination,
learning later...
some in fear, learning love of slaughter;
Died some, pro patria,
                                non "dulce" not "et decor"...
walked eye-deep in hell
believing old men's lies, then unbelieving
came home, home to a lie,
home to many deceits,
home to old lies and new infamy;
usury age-old and age-thick
and liars in public places.
Daring as never before, wastage as never before.
Young blood and high blood,
fair cheeks, and fine bodies;
fortitude as never before
frankness as never before,
disillusions as never told in the old days,
hysterias, trench confessions,
laughter out of dead bellies.

V
There died a myriad,
And of the best, among them,
For an old bitch gone in the teeth,
For a botched civilization,
Charm, smiling at the good mouth,
Quick eyes gone under earth's lid,
For two gross of broken statues,
For a few thousand battered books.

-- Ezra Pound
 

August, 2007

Loops in loops

 
TV on the Radio - Wolf Like Me (Sometimes I think I have OCD when it comes to music. Excellent song though)

 

Let the seasons begin - take the big king down

 
 
Can't get this song out of my head. Though admittedly I was expecting something along the lines of Monet's Luncheon of the Boating Party for the video but the post-boating-party decadence worked out pretty alright.The video misses a minute and 20 seconds of accordion (no, they're not ridiculous) and slow trumpets in the end. Elephant Gun is from Lon Gisland, the only song I've heard from the EP, the album I have is Gulag Orkestar in which that guy from Neutral Milk Hotel Jeremy Barnes (I think) plays along with him. Good stuff there, though I know more than a few people who didnt like that album. Reading this presently, skip the historical inaccuracies

Rilo Kiley - Its a Hit
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mU6evKmwLhA

It's a holiday for a hanging

Yeah